It's not about accusing her or not! I don't care about that--not anymore, anyway. Everyone found out it was her in the end, and it didn't even change anything.
But she came to you feeling guilty, and you knew why, and, what, all you could offer her was a "too bad, so sad, suck that you're a murderer but couldn't be me"? You know how terrible that feels, finding out later that the person you spilled your guts to was just as bad as you but didn't trust you enough to say anything about it? [ i mean. rex doesn't, because he's not susato and he wasn't there for that convo. but he's no stranger to betrayals, and he could see how much it hurt her to find out that alisaie had also killed after the fact. ]
You can say you care all you want, if it makes you feel better, but it doesn't change the fact that you hurt her. [ and also, y'know, killed roxis, but like. he can forgive murder compulsion, at least. ]
You seem to have a very different understanding of what happened than I. [She's frowning--Alisaie hasn't seen Susato yet to speak with her, but she can guess that Rex is working with with Susato's told him.]
Susato never told me what she did, nor did she "spill her guts." Each time I asked her to confide in me she redirected the conversation. She chose to keep her deeds to herself until I was certain enough of my suspicions to bring them up, and even then she said she didn't know what I meant by it!
You can be angry at me for not confessing to her in turn. But it was hardly a matter of trust. As I said, the angels threatened to kill Alphinaud. I tried to communicate that to her more than once and I thought she'd understood that. I had every reason to believe that were I to confess to my deeds, they would kill him.
I won't apologize for trying to protect him.
[But wow, no wonder she was getting so much grief at the beginning of the week--she's been working her ass off to try and collect information and organize everything for this war against Metatron and Xaphania, but it sounds like this side has been focusing on who has or hasn't been performative enough in their regret for their actions. And if that was the case, she was always going to come up short; Alisaie is the type of person to hide her weaker moments, especially in public.]
But you don't care about my side of things, do you? You only care that Susato was upset. In which case nothing I say is going to matter.
[ lmao tbf it's just rex who demands performativity #notalldeads
anyway rex's jaw clenches with a stern expression. ]
You don't have to apologize for anything. But I don't have to like any of it either. If there's one thing I learned from this place, it's that everyone's got their own side of things, and everyone picks whose side they care about most.
For you, your brother outweighed Susato. For me, Susato outweighs you. [ his tense anger loosens so that he shrugs with one shoulder with a callous air. ] If you make it up to her, then maybe I'll reconsider. But that all depends on how much you care about her, or me.
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But she came to you feeling guilty, and you knew why, and, what, all you could offer her was a "too bad, so sad, suck that you're a murderer but couldn't be me"? You know how terrible that feels, finding out later that the person you spilled your guts to was just as bad as you but didn't trust you enough to say anything about it? [ i mean. rex doesn't, because he's not susato and he wasn't there for that convo. but he's no stranger to betrayals, and he could see how much it hurt her to find out that alisaie had also killed after the fact. ]
You can say you care all you want, if it makes you feel better, but it doesn't change the fact that you hurt her. [ and also, y'know, killed roxis, but like. he can forgive murder compulsion, at least. ]
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Susato never told me what she did, nor did she "spill her guts." Each time I asked her to confide in me she redirected the conversation. She chose to keep her deeds to herself until I was certain enough of my suspicions to bring them up, and even then she said she didn't know what I meant by it!
You can be angry at me for not confessing to her in turn. But it was hardly a matter of trust. As I said, the angels threatened to kill Alphinaud. I tried to communicate that to her more than once and I thought she'd understood that. I had every reason to believe that were I to confess to my deeds, they would kill him.
I won't apologize for trying to protect him.
[But wow, no wonder she was getting so much grief at the beginning of the week--she's been working her ass off to try and collect information and organize everything for this war against Metatron and Xaphania, but it sounds like this side has been focusing on who has or hasn't been performative enough in their regret for their actions. And if that was the case, she was always going to come up short; Alisaie is the type of person to hide her weaker moments, especially in public.]
But you don't care about my side of things, do you? You only care that Susato was upset. In which case nothing I say is going to matter.
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anyway rex's jaw clenches with a stern expression. ]
You don't have to apologize for anything. But I don't have to like any of it either. If there's one thing I learned from this place, it's that everyone's got their own side of things, and everyone picks whose side they care about most.
For you, your brother outweighed Susato. For me, Susato outweighs you. [ his tense anger loosens so that he shrugs with one shoulder with a callous air. ] If you make it up to her, then maybe I'll reconsider. But that all depends on how much you care about her, or me.