[...ah. This makes a little more sense. Though there's definitely a lot to unpack here.]
Let us return to the matter of Rex's trial later, though I would point out the fallacies in your logic.
My trust in you does not come blindly, now or before. My trust was gained because you have proven yourself to be someone of many qualities I value highly, among those your determination, your sense of what is right and just, and your refusal to shy away from difficult situations. You are someone with a strong character and empathy for others--that is what made me trust you.
Had I not questioned you last week, my belief that you wouldn't harm Alphinaud would not have been because I thought you too kind-hearted to do so. It would have been because when you suspected me in Otamo and in Ahnkeen, you continued to treat me as a friend. You suspected more than the situation might have suggested.
[All she can see are blobs, but she looks at Susato anyways, focusing as best she can on where her eyes should be.]
And even then, should my trust have been misplaced there would have been a reckoning. I did and do trust that my own actions have made this clear to everybody here.
[After a moment, she sighs, turning her attention elsewhere.]
I suppose what I am asking forgiveness for is not having had suspicions in the first place, but for not speaking with you about them.
Is this another case of you wanting me to push you for an answer?
[She's not certain, but there's a hint of warmth in her voice as she continues, a little hint of teasing that hasn't been there in a while.] You may wish to rethink it, if that is truly the case. As my brother will gladly affirm, I can be quite stubborn.
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Let us return to the matter of Rex's trial later, though I would point out the fallacies in your logic.
My trust in you does not come blindly, now or before. My trust was gained because you have proven yourself to be someone of many qualities I value highly, among those your determination, your sense of what is right and just, and your refusal to shy away from difficult situations. You are someone with a strong character and empathy for others--that is what made me trust you.
Had I not questioned you last week, my belief that you wouldn't harm Alphinaud would not have been because I thought you too kind-hearted to do so. It would have been because when you suspected me in Otamo and in Ahnkeen, you continued to treat me as a friend. You suspected more than the situation might have suggested.
[All she can see are blobs, but she looks at Susato anyways, focusing as best she can on where her eyes should be.]
And even then, should my trust have been misplaced there would have been a reckoning. I did and do trust that my own actions have made this clear to everybody here.
[After a moment, she sighs, turning her attention elsewhere.]
I suppose what I am asking forgiveness for is not having had suspicions in the first place, but for not speaking with you about them.
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That I will accept. I would have liked to be able to talk about it, but . . . I wasn't certain enough you wanted to hear about it to keep trying.
[. . .]
The first time I really pushed someone into asking me about it, it. . . it went fairly badly. I haven't wanted to try since then.
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It isn't really a matter of who, only the why.
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Is this another case of you wanting me to push you for an answer?
[She's not certain, but there's a hint of warmth in her voice as she continues, a little hint of teasing that hasn't been there in a while.] You may wish to rethink it, if that is truly the case. As my brother will gladly affirm, I can be quite stubborn.
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No. I can talk about that, but I'd rather not. We have made amends.
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Full glad am I to hear it.
[If it was Sholmes, she'd. Definitely noticed that atmosphere between them at the trial. Yikes.]
At any rate, I wanted to clear the air.
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