[She nods, turning her face away for long enough to do a quick scrub of her eyes with the sleeve of her free arm/hand. Then she turns back toward Susato, finally meeting her eyes--as much as she can, anyway.]
Between this-- [Alisaie gestures toward her face, her eyes] --and that which I cannot say, I'm afraid I've made an unseemly display of myself today. [She gives a halfhearted attempt at a chuckle; look, see, she can laugh, she's fine...]
Yet I find myself... relieved, that somebody else should know.
There is so much happening here, and I feel rather at a loss sometimes to do anything that will truly help.
I thought perhaps. . . [Hmm.] When Kazuma-sama was, or appeared to be, killed, all I wanted was the truth, no matter who it hurt. So I had thought that here at least, if the only thing I could do was pursue the truth, then perhaps. . .
But I feel a little uneasy about it. The lawyers that I admire fight to defend people, to protect the people they believe in.
I think we would all would seek to protect those around us, were we given the choice. But instead, we are forced to the offensive and made to suspect one another. I believe it is because their masters know this to be the more painful option--especially now, when we now know we cannot refuse to accuse somebody.
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It must have been dreadful, to go through so much and be unable to talk to anyone about it.
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Between this-- [Alisaie gestures toward her face, her eyes] --and that which I cannot say, I'm afraid I've made an unseemly display of myself today. [She gives a halfhearted attempt at a chuckle; look, see, she can laugh, she's fine...]
Yet I find myself... relieved, that somebody else should know.
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[It's hard, to carry some burdens alone.]
You have made no unseemly display. But I hope you will let me help you however I can, now that I know at least some amount of it.
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Much as I would like to say I'll be fine, I've never been one for that sort of martyred nonsense. I would be grateful to you, truly.
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I thought perhaps. . . [Hmm.] When Kazuma-sama was, or appeared to be, killed, all I wanted was the truth, no matter who it hurt. So I had thought that here at least, if the only thing I could do was pursue the truth, then perhaps. . .
But I feel a little uneasy about it. The lawyers that I admire fight to defend people, to protect the people they believe in.
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I think we would all would seek to protect those around us, were we given the choice. But instead, we are forced to the offensive and made to suspect one another. I believe it is because their masters know this to be the more painful option--especially now, when we now know we cannot refuse to accuse somebody.
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